Girls' Thoughts.

Happy 10th Day of being together.

Well, I know it's kinda' lame to make that "10th day" shit up. But I find that this matters. I know it's REALLY lame k. And I know that you're putting your studies as first priority, but you're getting messed up, because of me and your friends who ask you about me and how we're getting along and stuff. I know you're hurt deep inside, but I just don't know what to do to help you. I know, in the name of girlfriend and as your girlfriend, it's pathetic of me to utter such words. But truly, I'm rather tired of believing in love. Sometimes, I just want to cry. So much. And I know, that all the time, that I'm the one always ranting to you. Never you ranting to me. And I know I suck as a girlfriend. :\

Anyways, today, we had lunch together :> And I felt really lonely today, until your Chemistry class w/ Miss Pay was over. I mean, you didn't text, and I thought I was annoying. Well, I know I was. Guess I should keep quiet next time.. So yup, you kinda' wanted to reject my cookies that I haven't baked and told me that I should have it for myself, but your actions, after school, told a whole different story. But I'm glad you liked them. And bii, I'm sorry for not being brave enough to kiss you. Not even a peck.. I'm sorry for not proving my love, to give you my everything. I'm sorry... I just feel..so...unsafe.. Once bitten, twice shy. But know, that my love for you is true. <3.

❝ Another second without you is loneliness. Another minute without you is crave. Another hour without you is torture. Another day without you is heartbreak. ❞
 I love you, Ong Zhan Song.

Hi Dear, most of the times when I wished to have a meal with you, you ain't free for me at all. Those were the times I wished to pour out whatever I've been keeping to myself. Suppose to be a one time thoughts of the day. But due to your busy schedule, I've collected months of thoughts that I was supposed to tell them to you. If I were to meet you again, I'm really unsure of which to start off with, so I kept it to myself again. Another month of thoughts. Well, while I'm free and you're not, I just wish to have your accompany, even just for a day. Now that I'm gone, I wish you do know about my existence in your life, well, before. Upon all the rejections you've given me, in the status of being my friend, I'm utterly disappointed. I felt so cold, so lonely, so unloved, so..unwanted. Telling myself, it's okay, you're busy, to stop myself of thinking too much. What's important to you, is not me. I've discovered some secrets about you, yet I kept it to myself. The moment when you're free to read my blog, I could have left, and no longer by your side. I feel that I'm a pest to you, having to text you every day for a meet up. After being rejected by you as a boyfriend all the time, I gave up in asking for your opinions. I've decided to leave here, leave you, to somewhere I belong and you don't. Somewhere, perhaps I can be able to watch over you, bless you. So, when I'm gone, just carry on.

 Don't get mad when a girl cares too much,

 worry when she starts to not give a fuck.

- Tumblr.