Hellooooo. Today was the first day back in school, and the first day of my "relationship" with ZhanSong. When I went into class today, there wasn't much talk. Just that Winny and Amani talked to me about him. Lol. So yeah. We texted almost-the-whole-day, in class, during Recess and such. Then we met outside the Music Room, but he was really quiet.. I felt like an idiot saying "hi" to him and asking him to say something, and I feel bad for having had Ingrid tag along because it was between me and him, nothing to do with her. And, because of me and my "game", he was made fun of by plenty of people from his class, from 3N1, 3N2 and such. I felt really bad. Really.. But then, I asked myself why we talked as if we were really in a relationship.. Was it just his act? Because if it was, well, I'm stupid. Because I've put my feelings into this. I can't believe it, like, seriously? And people like JiaWei and JiaEn kept disturbing me about ZhanSong that I got kinda' pissed. God I'm so childish.
I wish that he felt the same way. I wish that it turned into reality, instead of just a game.
Or maybe, this is just an infatuation..
I need an answer...
Maybe, I wouldn't be so confused.
And maybe, I wouldn't be so reckless.
And most likely, maybe, it wouldn't hurt this much,
If only I didn't put my feelings into this. _|_
Maybe, I wouldn't be so confused.
And maybe, I wouldn't be so reckless.
And most likely, maybe, it wouldn't hurt this much,
If only I didn't put my feelings into this. _|_
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