Someone that was once a stranger now is the only person you know like the back of your hand. Someone you once had no emotions for, now has the power to break your heart. Someone you used to never hangout with, now owns most of your time. Someone that you thought you’d never love, owns your entire heart. Someone you once lived without, you now wish to hold on forever.
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ZhanSong, thank you for everything, really.
Thank you for being my boyfriend. Thank you for cheering me up all the time when I get sad. Thank you for bothering to even talk to me. Thank you for thinking so highly of me when I'm not good at all(which is why I have so little friends). Thank you for sacrificing your time just to meet me. Thank you for always acting like you're not hurt just to not worry me. Thank you for always making my day. Thank you for being you. Thank you for loving me. I love you, and I want to spend forever with you.
Though I'm such a gutless chicken to not even dare to kiss you, you never minded. And you hugged me and kissed my hair because it was in the way of my cheek(which was still very lovely). And you never got impatient, you always cared, though sometimes you do neglect. But I guess that's normal, since you have your life and you've already sacrificed enough for me. Truly.
I want to be your girlfriend for many years, and throughout this year, next year, and the year after. I want to date you and get to bring you home to meet your in-laws, which are my family members, and I want to meet yours. I want to be able and brave enough to hug and kiss you without feeling nervous or shy or afraid because of others' stares. I want to date you in Polytechnic, then get a job application and even then, be with you. I want to get married with you and have your children. I want to grow old with you. I want to do everything with you, Ong Zhan Song.
I know this is just the beginning of us, but i feel so much for you already. i feel like we’ve been like this for awhile now. you’re everything he never was. you treat me right, you always make me happy. i don’t have to wait for your texts. you don’t reply back with one worded answers. you act like you care, because you really do. i know i can tell you anything, and that you’ll support me. we’re like that cute little high school couple, the one everyone wants, & deserves to get. & the thing is, we both don’t want it to end. we both feel the same way, & if anything happened from this moment on, it would tear us apart.
i’m sitting here crying because i’m so scared. but at the same time i’m so happy i’m falling in love with you. you’re the person i’ve waited for all this time, the person i’ve looked for all my life and when i least expected it you walked into my life. you listen when i talk, are there when i cry and you made me finally smile. i’m crying for the last time i hope, and i trust that you won’t hurt me. it’s so hard for me to trust guys, but you’re worth it to me. so, here’s my heart, see all the little cracks? they’re pretty small and healed nicely, but you, i know, that you’re the one that could make it completely shatter. promise me you won’t, please, promise me you’ll love me forever and that you won’t break my heart. even if you can’t promise me that, i’ll give you my heart anyway. cause i know that if i don’t i’ll regret it for the rest of my life. you’re the only person who is necessary in my life.
Truly loving someone means always being there for them, no matter wether it’s good times or bad. You want to make that person feel special and make them smile whenever you can. It means knowing that even in darkest times, during the biggest fights - that you will both love each other when it’s over. Having a smile come to your lips when you think of them. Thinking about them when you’re not with them and having your heart race when you know you will be with them soon. It’s wanting to spend the rest of your life with them.
I wish i could still hold you, tomorrow, the next day, forever. I wish I could still call you mine. I am so happy to have you. I want to say I love you every minute, everyday. I want tell you that I want you, that i need you, that it is you, only you, and will always be you. I wish i can just pull you close to me, hug you tight, hold your hand, just so no one could ever take you away from me. I love you.
Right now, at this very moment, all I want to do is sit across from you and talk about life and when we run out of topics, we could just hold hands because that would be enough. But you’re not here and we can’t talk face to face because miles separate us. Well I can smell these flowers you sent, or look at pictures from before, but I can’t wrap my arms around a moment in time. So I sit and think of what we will do when I finally see you again. All I really want to do is enjoy each others company and maybe watch a movie or two about falling in love and growing old together. And maybe you and I could fall in love and grow old together, too and
I want to take a lifetime to memorize your face.
That one day, some girl will take my spot. That one day a girl will sit with you, laugh with you, smile with you, & have a good time with you. That one day a girl will realize that you’re amazing. That one day that girl becomes your girlfriend. That one day she takes my spot for good. That one day you will forget about me because you’re busy thinking about her. Yeah, that scares me the most. Because, I want to be that girl. I want to be only girl. I don’t want anyone to take my spot. Why? Because, if anyone takes my spot; there won’t be anyone else who can take yours… which is probably going to be the worst reminder that I lost my spot to her.
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