Hopes and dreams.

I'm sorry for all the wrongs I've done. I'm sorry I didn't talk to you right and didn't make you laugh much during the 52 days of our relationship. I'm sorry I didn't make you happy, didn't make you smile. I'm sorry I didn't let you do much and kept bothering you when you were doing your stuffs. I'm sorry I didn't give you the space you needed and kept nagging at you and kept spamming you and getting mad at you without reason. I'm sorry that sometimes, I ignored you and sometimes, I didn't listen to you and didn't do what you wanted me to do. I'm sorry that you had to spend time and made the effort to go all the way, from your house, to Block84 and still have to come over to my house and go to the fifth floor just for us to meet up at night. I'm sorry for all the things I've done that made you upset, and I'm sorry for being so dead in conversations and didn't manage to keep them lively. I'm sorry I was always so pessimistic and always disagreed to what you said when I said I was lousy and was a pathetic girlfriend. I'm sorry for everything.

Thank you for having talked to me on 13 April, and letting me confide in you, everything that was on my mind and related to Ted. Thank you for being willing to call me "Dearest" even though we weren't close and risked getting caught texting in class because I was bored. Thank you for being willing to put the relationship status and laughing off the fact when you saw the huge reaction of everyone on Facebook the very next day. Thank you for laughing with me, for making fun of me, for having put so much into this relationship. Thank you for coming over to Toa Payoh MRT just for us to meet up and head to VIVO when we didn't even talk and I kept sweating and texting. Thank you for chiding me and making me come to my senses. Thank you for letting me play with your phone and letting me play "Spot The Difference" with you on your phone. Thank you for accompanying me while I was with my dajie and korkor at the coffee shop.

Thank you for holding my hand in the theatres that time and being so intimate with me. Thank you for holding my hand all the way until I saw my dajie and korkor and letting go when you realized they were there. Thank you for having spent the money and time watching Source Code and Pirates of the Carribean: On Stranger Tides, with me. Thank you for helping me do my homework the other time even though it was just me being lazy. Thank you for spending every morning with me when it was the exam period when you should've been studying with your friends. Thank you for helping me out and helping my studies even though you had to study as well. Thank you for not minding what other people thought of us, and just eating together in the canteen and just slacking at the mac tables.

Thank you for walking all the way from your class instead of ignoring me when I waited outside, to the Music room and to the canteen. Thank you for buying me food because I was lazy to queue. Thank you for those times when you came to my house and we just did those intimate stuffs together. Thank you for going out with me the second time, to NEX, even though it was just a short while. Thank you for buying the tickets first and still having to rush to the MRT station's entrance because I didn't know the way to go to NEX from the MRT station. Thank you for holding my hand and bringing me along, and just slacking at the entrance of the cinema waiting and killing time. Thank you for making fun of me and making me laugh all the time. Thank you for those hugs and kisses, thank you for having been there for me, thank you for speaking up for me when Edwin was putting me down and calling me a prick even though your friends made fun of you.

Thank you for bearing with my nonsense all those times when I was really lame or pessimistic. Thank you for the memories forged after time, after 52 days. Thank you for making the effort to search for those quotes that were really mushy and sending them through text, and thank you for making the effort to post stuffs on my wall and make people laugh at how silly we were. Thank you for having been my boyfriend. Thank you for everything.