Well...woke up at 5 in the morning feeling really drowsy. Headed to MacRitchie Reservoir after surfing Facebook and posting a few statuses. Slacked around and met up with YangZhi and the rest. You were late. Texted Ingrid and told her some stuff and I couldn't help but keep looking at you.. My group turned out to be Group 1, headed to the bus, saw my classmates and schoolmates and got the residents to go to the slopes and had them sit there before the emcees, Senhe and some other girl, came up and announced the commence of the One Community Walk.
Danced the Let's Build Community dance and had some weird people dancing and we were supposed to dance along but didn't. Ran to the back and joined the others because it was so awkward and there were photographers. After that, proceeded to the walk and I looked for you again.. Went up to people and started chatting with them and then, caught up to you. You paused there and just stood there, and I went ahead of you.
Listened as the people ranted about the Reservoir and that the ground was once made of mud/soil and it was disgusting and all. She didn't like her daughter-in-law, that resident I talked to. Said she was really selfish, lol. Then, went back after the walk and marked attendance with Miss Chiang, before we had to go around surveying a minimum of 3 people. Headed around and saw you again, with JiHyo. Talked to people like Mdm Thor, Miss Ng and Mr Sugu. Met up with my classmates and talked around before heading to find Ingrid.
Saw her, and suddenly something flashed across in my mind and I felt as if I've been in that place before... Talked to her for a while before heading back and looking for my class. ChinMing and Mdm Thor tried to snap a photo of me. -.- Then, headed back after looking at you with your class, with Mr Yip and taking a photo for the people who dressed up in traditional costumes.. Canceled the badminton game with Javier because the court was taken up.
I felt you looking at me today when I was shouting, beside you, to my classmates. But I'm not sure if you did. All I know is that I miss you so damn fucking much that I'd go on my knees and beg for you to want me back if it means doing it in front of the whole damn fucking school. I'm no longer who I was anymore. I feel myself being so much more of a bitch, I feel myself being so much more angry and upset with life, and I feel myself so much more empty. And only you can fix me now.. But I guess that no matter what I do, you won't come back. So.., I've got to constantly remind myself that you're gone now and I don't want you back. Because I know you don't want to be back and I don't want you to stick by my side if it means hurting yourself. So...bye. Farewell.
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