You're everything that makes me fall in love.

I can't help but get jealous every single time I see you post on a girl's wall, comment on their status/photo, or when a girl likes your status and flirts with you. It just annoys me, and I don't have a clue why. I've no reason to either. When I saw Michelle and Kristel like your status, it just annoys me so much that I want to go up to them and just whack them so hard they'd get scared and never go close to you again. But I know I can't do that, 'cause I've got no rights to, neither would I because I'm just so gutless. I'm sorry I get jealous. I'm sorry that I can't get over you, I'm sorry that I think of you all the time and go through your profile. I'm sorry I'd like almost all your statuses and links and photos. I'm sorry I'm such a pain in the neck. I'm sorry for everything, I just feel like slapping myself so hard and ignoring everyone and just going MIA. But I can't..

I've put up the blog link on my Facebook. It's visible to only you and Ingrid. But I doubt you'd see this, I doubt you'd do anything even if you do. I'm sorry but..you're everything that makes me fall in love. Yeah, those are song lyrics, but, I mean it. You're nice, you're sweet, you make fun of things a lot but you do get serious in the right times. You always cheer me up and care for me, you'd help me out in my studies if I ask. You do all sorts of weird stuff, you post statuses that make a lot of people laugh. You're cool that way. You get along with almost everyone. You never talk bad about others(at least, not much), you never disrespect your elders, you're a filial son to your parents and you've never raised your voice at your pms mum. You're just awesome. And you're the one that I want to be with. But I doubt you'd never feel the same.

I've never felt what I feel towards anyone else but you. Not even Jonathan, not even Ted. You make my emotions go on a roller-coaster ride. From the warmth of love that you showered me with to the depths of despair knowing that you wanted to break up. Honestly, I didn't dare to believe that you really wanted a breakup. It never crossed my mind. I thought, during the time when you were sick, that you just needed some time. You talked to me, still. It was a little colder than how you usually talked but.., I thought that it was just a few mood swings that would occur when someone's recovering. I talked to people like Victor Goh, FanXing, Amani, Ingrid and other people, they told me to either give up, slowly wait and give you space(Ingrid) or just dump you. It never crossed my mind that the first person you'd dump is me, it never even crossed my mind that we'd break up. We didn't make it to even the second month.

To tell you the truth, I was a little disappointed. But filled with despair as well. I'm sorry but...I can't get over you yet. But I think you have, already. After all, you don't want to talk about these stuff right now..right? I don't want to regret anything, I don't want to regret after letting you go. So I just hope.., you'd give me a reply when you could face me, or when I could face you. Because then, I'd be able to come to a decision. But for now...I guess I should just hold on, just for the time being. :') I don't know how long it'll be but...yeah.

I love you.