Falling apart.

Everything's falling apart. My class is in total chaos and our new class group should just be renamed as anti-Sabine. Seriously. I'm sick and tired of our quarrels, rumors, badmouths. Just so tired of all these drama, just hoping there's someone out there who agrees with me, who also feels that it's tiring and lame and stupid to even think about it.

Anyways, yesterday, I didn't go for Chinese Orchestra. Fell ill. Slacked around outside the Music Room and met up with Ingrid, Jiawei and the rest. Been rather awkward around Jiawei recently, but at the same time, feeling closer to him, too. Okay that just sounds wrong. Never mind. So...talked, slacked, then Miaoxuan accompanied me all the way to the d&t staircase and even sent me off, so sweet! ^^ LOL.

Outside of school, I was with my parents and in the car. I turned to one direction(my right), I saw Mark. I got so shocked, and I think he saw me too. Hurriedly turned to the other direction and it wasn't any better, because I saw you. ._. You looked angry, don't know why though.. So...our eyes met for about a second, I think.

Turned away immediately and felt so frightened. Even though I keep saying I want to say hi to you, well..secretly, I'm running away. Running away, hiding from you. And I'm afraid that I might never be able to see nor talk to you ever again while looking at you in the eye, 'cause I'm afraid of the memories that will haunt me once again. Well, they still are haunting but...I've learnt to live with it.


2E2'11, 1E2'10, Erhu'11, Chinese Orchestra'11, I'm sick of you.