You can do it.

Sometimes, I find being a leader in Balestier Hill Secondary, a waste of time. Sometimes I just feel like I just need some space of my own, not being responsible nor enthusiastic. Not giving a damn in the world and just breaking all the rules as and when I wish. But I know it's impossible, considering my character. Even if I try to hide my enthusiasm, the bare minimum of my attendance to almost every event that a P.E Leader had to attend this year already proved my enthusiasm. I couldn't hide it. I like being a P.E Leader, I like to feel that I can lead the class and be responsible for once. I really do.

But sometimes, I get really tired. I get tired of shouting and shouting like some madwoman and when my classmates don't give me the slightest bit of attention, I just feel so annoyed and wanting to throw in the towel. I just want to give up and not give a damn anymore when that happens. But time and again, I don't ever seem to give up. Time and again, I tell myself that, "Hey, just chill for a moment and try to get your act right. Don't lose your temper."

I got selected to be one of the leading cheer members of my class' cheer for National Day. Together with Hiran, Abigail, YongJun and MinHao. This time, I didn't want to go at all. I got dragged inside by force thanks to the group of people that I usually hang out with - Patrine, SingYing, Winny, YingLing. :/ They kept shouting my name from the back of the class, and Miss Yap just wrote it there.. No one would ever listen to me, no one would ever care. I made the effort to tell them to sleep early tonight because of NAPFA tomorrow. But they wouldn't listen. I don't know why I still care, but I do. No one would ever show me the slightest bit of concern, that's for sure. :/ Tired of trying. Sometimes, I'd just want to give up, but I never ever do, and I doubt I ever will. Jiayou 2E2'11! I believe that one day, we'd be united as one class. All for one, one for all.

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I still remember the time when you told me: "I know you'd be there to protect me. <3" I still will, I always will protect you and defend you.