Didn't get to sleep much last night.. Cried to sleep at around 5 and woke up at 6. Forced myself to laugh like mad. After P.E today, you were with your friends and class while I was outside the gym. We made eye contact again, and I turned away, avoiding you, again. It's been 55 days since our breakup. And I'm not even sure what I want now. It's as if I want to avoid you, yet seeing you is the only one thing I want to do every single day. Sometimes I do wish that we were never together, that we've never met and never did talk to each other. Because right now I just can't seem to stop; I'm in overdrive and my feelings are going haywire. Wish there was someone I could rant all of this to, but I just can't. Because I shouldn't burden people with my problems anymore. Yeah. And sometimes I wonder if you do read this blog. Because it'd be amazing that you could still be around me, even if we don't talk, when you know how I feel deep inside, all the time.
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