I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with. When something is troubling me, you're the one who understands me well enough. When I laugh and cry, I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when I lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other.
School as usual, classes as usual. Irene Ng's stepping down thanks to her sorethroat, for the time being. Mr Yeong's teaching us for the whole semester, even after examinations. Got pissed off by my classmates again today because they fucking scolded me, Patrine, SingYing and Winny when we're the ones who are trying to gather the class as one. Got stared at by the others but we didn't mind, we sang. They found us annoying, we ignored it. We tried, but instead, we're the ones who got scolded instead of those who didn't try at all. Fuck?
After school, went to Square2 with Patrine, Fenna and FanXing. Saw Juztin and ZhengYu walking towards that direction while we were going back to school. Parted ways with FanXing while Fenna, Patrine and I went back and got called by Kamsari to give him our food(was a joke). Saw Edwin and Yuenfone at the parade square. Back to class, got to see only Abigail and SingYing. Slacked around, continued drawing Kotori Kanbe for SingYing while the others did their Maths graph. So...went to the Mac tables, saw Huiyi and Ashley. Then saw Jiawei, Alvin, Anand, Edwin, WanKang and Mr.Tan. Went off after that.
It's the 108th day since I've started loving you. It's amazing how long it's been and I realized I was a huge fool. But I can't help but just continue doing everything I do. Whenever there's things like games and team spirit-related activities, I can't help but want to try to bring the class together. Even though I can't, I just do try but I'd end up in disappointment when I see how we are, AS A CLASS. I find myself to useless, y'know? And...I saw you today. You came out of your class and looked down while I was looking up to your class. You turned away immediately and my mood just went from elated to dead. I didn't get to see you marking your attendance today. And...I just hope that you could talk to me one day, because I know I'd be afraid to talk to you first. Yet.., I'm afraid to talk to you 'cause I might fall for you all over again. 108 days..how long will this continue...
Oh, look. It's 1753hrs now. 160420111753, remember..?
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