Hanging by a thread.

So tired of loving. Did you know, my friends told me to give up on you and break up with you. Well, most of them did. Some of them told me to hang on and find the reason why you've been treating me so cold. Even my brother knows of what you're doing to me, now. I knew he could help and give me advice; he was an honest guy after all. My brother, my only kin that I can trust with any secret. He told me to hold on because I wouldn't hurt myself deeper by letting you go. He told me that handmade gifts are the most valuable thing in the world. But when I gave it to you...you didn't seem happy. Rather, disappointed. I don't know why. :'/

BabyZS, I really don't know whether to hold on to our relationship that doesn't even look like a relationship, or to break up and lead us back to square one- strangers. I don't know of the consequences of breaking up with you, but I don't know what life, in a positive sense, may bring, if I do. I've text you and asked you why you're like this lately, but you're not giving me an answer. :/ Not a single fucking reply. (...) Really disappointed, yet not willing to let go. I bet you don't know what's going on in my mind, right? I bet you don't know all the songs I've played, all the tears I've shed, and all the broken smiles I put on. And obviously, you wouldn't know how much I love you. All those tears I've shed, it was painful. You made me cry effortlessly. But when I cry because of Ted, in the past, I used to cry only after remembering the times I've spent with him and Jonathan. Yours is effortless, the tears fall immediately when I miss you. ;(

Fever, sorethroat, heartache.