It's still the same.

I had this really nice dream last night. It was related to you. I don't quite clearly remember but..you were beside me, I think. Or maybe you came to me. I remember you whispering in my ear, "Meet you outside your house later." Then I did. And you hugged me, and it was as if everything was back to normal, like I was your girl once more. I didn't know why I dreamt that, but when I woke up, I felt as if I was in a relationship with you again. The memories just kept making me smile, until I remembered the heart-wrenching fact that you're no longer mine.. That you're gone...

Y'know.. Before you gave me the cold shoulder after you got well, before the 7th of June, I bought you this keychain. It was red, and it had your birthday written on it. Yeah, it's cheap and yeah..guys wouldn't like keychains but..I just bought it. I wanted to give it to you. So...when you gave me that cold shoulder treatment, every night, I just told myself to patiently wait until you felt better so that I could give it to you. But soon after, you said it was better if we stayed as friends, that it would hurt more if it drags on.

So yeah, we broke up just like that. No reasons, no explanations whatsoever. You went back to Indonesia, I went back to Malaysia. I bought another keychain for you. It was black, and in the shape of a pig. 'Cause I remember how you used to say 'zhuzhu'. But...I know now, that no matter how much I try, even if I do give you the keychain, it won't bring you back. (...) And I doubt you'd ever read this blog, 'cause I don't even exist in your eyes. In your eyes, in your heart, in your memories even, I'm not in it.

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Preparing to go out to Bugis/Iluma with Patrine, YingLing, SingYing and Fenna today. Meeting Pat and Sy @ Toa Payoh MRT station. Hopefully, it'll be enjoyable..